Jigsaws …

It is a very strange one but if you have been there then you will know! Just after I had my break-down I felt like I could not even make a cup of coffee without messing it up. To be somewhere like that in your life it is extremely hard; You can’t see the light or good. Lying there on the sofa still and empty I would just stare at the walls finding hard to even say anything. My mom started bringing out jigsaws and sat with me. I would just look at her and she would encourage me to do one with her.

It all started with 500 pieces and having help. Sounds mad I know. But sitting there with my mom and siblings doing jigsaws just meant that I didn’t have to talk or even think for that matter, but they are still there with me. At the start I would get terribly upset and destressed trying to do a 500-piece jigsaw. I just could not do it without any help. Each week my sister would come over and sit and do one with me. That was my small pleasure at my lowest moment.

As my family kept sitting with me, helping me. It started to feel like not only are they helping me put a jigsaw together bit by bit, but they are doing that to me as well. I started to feel like I can do something. Yes, I need help, but I could do it! I started to talk a more and more over the time we spent sitting there doing jigsaws. As my confidence grew, I started to see if I could more pieces in or get them done in a quicker time.

It was then my mom changed the challenge and started buying 1000-piece jigsaws. With a lot more coffee, confidence, and hope in me I started to do the jigsaws by myself. Once I’d finished a jigsaw it was evidence to me that I can do things and I should keep fighting.

Its strange isnt it that one simple thing can really help you. I have met others that have been in the same situation and sitting there in silence with someone doing a jigsaw can really heal the heart and mind. When things are going wrong having someone sitting there in silence with a cup of tea in hand and a jigsaw is all you could need.

For those out there who are struggling or know someone who is I recommend that you try it.